An open letter to the one who got away

                      

I write this to thank you for various reasons. Every girl in her life is brought up with stories of princes and the perfect guy but she is not brought up  with narrations of realistic instances. The instances that mention that its not necessary that you grow up to easily find  a loving partner, but what is more possible is  that before you find the  one who selflessly loves you, you end up meeting the one who destroys you emotionally and makes you feel worthless. And you were that one guy for me.

Months ago I would have just been another girl, helplessly crying, waiting for that one phone call or text from you, listening to the most sentimental songs, and cursing myself and my life on why I met you at the first place. I believed I was never good enough for any one else and I thought that I will never be able to experince the same emotions that I felt for you. I always thought you brought light to my world and things became better when you were a part of it, but I was wrong. You were never the source of light rather you turned out to be the darkness in my life, the darkness that was capable of conquering me for a long time. You conqured my life in such a way that it operated according to your validity. I was dependent on your opinion. I assumed it to be love, while all it turned out to be was me selflessly giving it all to you to get nothing in return.

I do not disagree when people say you are a nice person, but I want you to know that no matter how good a person you are, and how bad the other person might be, the other person can never ever deserve to be emotionally destroyed by you. But never will I regret whatever happened to me, neither will I ever suggest any girl who has been through the same  situation to regret what happened. Dont regret the times you cried, waited for that one guy to come back, or felt worthless without him. Because it's only when he has left you, alone, you discover your own worth.

You realise you arent dependent on a guy for any approval. A guy doesnt have to tell you that you are beautiful. He doesnt have to be there to bring happiness in your life. You are capable of doing wonders. You are independent, worthy and self sufficient. Dont stop believing!
And I thank you for making me realise all of this. For transforming me into the person I am today, stronger than ever! Nevertheless it would be right to say, I am glad that you got away.